I think I tend to be someone who lets things slip through my fingers way too easily. Especially when it's something that is directly just for me. I don't take the risk for myself anymore, afraid it will bring a bad outcome to those around me who I love.
I have got to get past that.
If I don't I won't achieve an ounce of everything I want to in this life. That is certainly not the mindset I want to pass to my children and I would hate to watch my flaws be passed on to them.
Things in this life can be so complicated and us as people, only make it worse. When it comes to dreams and goals, no matter how hard and scary it may be to try, it has to be taken on. My life as a mom and wife are great. I love my children and husband very much and making them happy truly makes me happy. Any mother who can look at their child and not care how their actions affect that little life they brought into this world, they are seriously confused on what being a mother truly is. Making them happy and providing them with all the love and confidence I can offer is my greatest 'duty'. Here is the but...But where is the line that giving up all of you is not the best for them?
It is such a struggle every day to know that what I decide tomorrow could be a huge impact on their life. There is the expression "In a perfect world" but when you are a parent the only thing in this world that is perfect is your babies pure and innocent smile.
So as I go on tomorrow, and plan to chase my dreams and passions more, I hope that I am lead down the right road so that I can look back and not wish I'd taken a different direction...for them and for myself.
